I hate that I keep focusing on heartbreak, but that seems to be the resounding theme in both my writing and the lives of several people I hold dear to my heart. Speaking of hearts (blah, I feel like such a girl)…
My heart hurts when someone I care about is in physical pain. The fortunate thing is that physical ailments can oftentimes be alleviated or cured with medication.
My heart hurts even worse when those I love are facing a pain that can’t be mended so easily. It’s hard to craft the perfect words of comfort for someone with a waterfall of tears streaming down their face. You can offer an embrace, though your arms will never provide the comfort of the arms they long for. You can listen to what they have to say, or sit in silence with them when they can’t get the words to leave their tongue. Regardless of what small comforts you can offer, I think that just reassuring them that you will be there for them no matter what the outcome is the best thing you can do.
To my dear friend, today may feel like your world has fallen down around you, and there’s a good chance that tomorrow will be one hundred times worse. It has to get worse before it can get better, right? There will be a void; an emptiness that feels like it go on forever. You can try to fill that void with food, alcohol, prescription drugs (I prefer chocolate, vodka and xanax). You may be tempted to fill it with another person, convince yourself that’s what you need to get back on your feet, to be whole again.
I also suggest loud music, preferably Kelly Clarkson, The Fray, and Adele, but that’s not really your style. I’ll listen to it for you and report back how much better it made me feel.
I know several people who would line up to help you with a bit of playful vengeance should you venture down that path, but I think you care too much to be mean. Once the burn isn’t so strong, you may feel differently, and we’ll be here still, waiting in the wings for you. Whichever method you use to grieve, please stay true to yourself. Don’t compromise who you are because of how someone else has made you feel. You are strong, you are beautiful, and you are worth the time it’s going to take to heal.
You also need to remember that it’s ok to cry. I personally hate it when I let myself cry. I hate to appear weak, hate to let someone know that they were able to get under my skin in such a way. I think we can both agree to remind each other of one very important thing- people cry not because they are weak, but because they have been strong for too long.
So what do you do with a waterfall of tears? You let them fall.